equinoctial musings
the fall
receiving and celebrating the bounty of the summer. we enjoy the materialization of all previously sown seeds and the divinity of their blossoming. gratitude season...the balance of light and shadow, outward and inward, before we delve into the shadow season that is winter. as we enjoy, celebrate and share the bounty, we are also being called to introspection. the light of the outward...the shadows of the inward...allow the gratitude and celebration to charge and ignite you. igniting courage..igniting steadfastness. illuminating the heart. from the loving light of the heart, we can delve into the deepest cellars of our mind and emotions. we will need the charge and inspiration to traverse our innder landscape. with the equinox. we are in a moment of balance...just as the scales begin tipping into the shadow season, we connect in community, in partnership, with loved ones. then we find the solittude and stillness to hear, see and feel into ourselves with perfect clarity.
the balance of light and shadow...this is the season of my birth...balance is the only position i know to hold...without balance, stagnance is likely. my version of balance sets my scales even, sitting directly across from one another. fluid movements upward and downward...gently recaliberating...they do not swing wildly...my scales are anchored in the earth...so my fluctuations are graceful and steadied...
how much light and how much shadow? there are moments to dive into the shadows...i need light to illuminate the shadows and their details. i am eternal light. the more i energize my etheric, light self, the more shadows come to the surface. my light orders my steps through the shadows. light to inspire my courage...as i continue to ignite my own light, more shadows are revealed. the balance of light and shadow: the brighter the light, the more shadows to the fore...as shadows are cleared, the birghter my light becomes. they need each other. overindulgence in one obscures the other...
how i am balancing for the equinox + the seasons...
the light and the shadow...my daily and weekly practices sustain and amplify my light within. with more illumination comes more revelation. i know the continuous raising of my vibration calls forth my shadows. i cannot continue to be my whole self without being with the pieces and parts that are cracked and wounded. to be my whole self, i meet all of myself. the light reveals the shadows that would leave me stationary and stagnant. as the seasons shift and we are nudged indoors, seeking heated bites and bowls of sustenance, i am intentional in my exploration of the shadows. i am more quiet. i am more still. my inquiries and asks more earnest. i travel deeper into myself. as the roots of integral shadows become visible, i begin my steps to clear and heal. the excavations are consistent until the spring approaches. my winters are my hiberation in spirit. i cocoon in my rituals and practices...renewed and rebirthed as the sun ascends for the vernal equinox...
outward + inward...i play in the dark more... there's more time and space dedicated to quiet. i embrace the tucking sensation of the winter. my disposition shifts...i feel pulled within. the spring and summer find me much more apt to seek adventures and action and socializing. the dead season asks me to unearth buried shadows. my amplified quiet cues the recesses of my subconscious and the feelings in the hidden chambers of my heart. i fish them out...lay them out before me..and begin the healing...
first: acknowledgement
second: releasing
third: cleansing
fourth: restoration
i give the restoration space and time to settle…wrapped and tucked in for the last days of winter…